I’m sure you understand this, but there are many things in many moments that can change our lives.
Sometimes it’s a person, sometimes an experience, and sometimes it’s just a realization that can alter the course of our lives.
For me, one of these life altering moments happened the day my father tried to give me $50. I’m sure in your head right now you are thinking what the heck?!?!
But seriously, this is true story I am about to share with you.
Many of you know my history. I lived a life filled with heartache, drugs, abuse, neglect and making my own way through life. This dysfunctional life started at a young age and I learned very early on that I had to rely on myself and not to take anything from anyone.
Taking and borrowing things from others often came with a price. They would eventually want or expect something in exchange for their “generosity”. Now flash forward to when I was 21 years old,I had just moved to CA where I was introduced to my real father.
He opened his doors to a desperate young woman who was consumed with fear, insecurities, and TONS of emotional baggage!
I was determined to pay my own way, but within a few weeks quickly ran out of cash. I needed $10 to have enough gas to get me to-and-from work until my next paycheck, so I asked my father.
He pulled out a $50 and handed it to me. “I don’t want $50” I explained, “Don’t you just have a $10 I can borrow?” Looking at the expression on my face he smiled and said no.
Panic overcame me and I started to get defensive. “I can’t take this, here take it back” I said. He refused. “I DON’T WANT YOUR MONEY!” I now screamed.
He just smiled and now declared it was a gift. My old programming kicked in and I went into a full on meltdown over this.
Only aware to my father in this moment, I had hit up against my worthiness issues. I didn’t feel worthy of accepting his money and feared what repercussions would follow if I dare did accepted it.
Knowing this was an opportunity for growth, my father just stood there and held me through all the emotions. Rage, hurt, fear, sadness, you name it I was going through it.
When the emotions started to subside, my father went into his office and returned with a book that was to forever change my life. It was called The Power of Intention by Dr. Wayne Dyer and it opened a door that would be impossible to ever close again.
This was a turning point in my life that has shaped me into the teacher and coach I am today. I often now see this same worthiness issue manifesting in my clients and now can smile right through it.
My father & Wayne Dyer were both powerful teachers that fostered the change in me. That is why this week I am sharing with you 3 Wayne Dyer Quotes that are true words to live by.
I hope you find peace within these words and joy on the other side. I wish you all the love and grace for your day and can’t wait to see you soon!
Until then, keep being awesome!
XOXO – Bonnie Kelly
PS: Don’t forget!! The Emotional Revolution starts this week Thursday!! If you haven’t reserved your seat, now is the time!! Seriously! This is going to be one powerful event and might even be that turning event that changes everything for you.